I need to catch you up on our Christmas. It was crazy. There were ER visits, more doctor visits, a sister getting married, a new job. But before I do that, the most exciting thing first -
I GOT NEW CARPET!!!
And boy did I need it. I've wanted new carpet ever since we moved in, and that's been 5 years now! So it was badly needed. And I'm now happy to say that I don't hate my house as much as I used to which is good for Toby because he doesn't want to move.
Now you're wondering what all this has to do with my mom. Well...after I dragged myself into bed last night with my hands bleeding from ripping up the carpet, my muscles literally shaking from lifting so many heavy things 2 nights in a row, and my brain pretty much shut down because of exhaustion, I realized that it has been 2 years since my mom died. And in my weird state of exhaustion, I smiled, because I had been thinking of my mom all day because I knew she was the only other person that would be as excited as I was to get new carpet.
It has been a long year, in some ways, harder than the year before. I've wanted her advice on so many things. I've wanted to show her my cute little red head baby that she always wanted. Mostly, I just wanted a hug.
But I will just have to be happy with all of the many times I've felt her giving me a hug.
It's almost just as good!
And now for pictures of the carpet:
Before & After
Was that burber(sp?) carpet from before? That's what we have in our house and I hate it! Congrats to you! Eagerly waiting for er stories.
ReplyDeleteWow! The color is perfect. I'm sorry we weren't there to help with all the construction.
ReplyDeleteI realized last night, moments before my head hit the pillow, that it was January 3rd. Ugh. Dad is sad.
I stumbled across your blog about 2 years ago - right after my dad was diagnosed with cancer (he passed away 2 months ago). I wanted to thank you for sharing your feelings about your mom, about grieving, and about missing her. In some twisted way your posts have been a comfort to me, knowing the inevitable will happen, but knowing that we continue to to go on, just missing them more than anyone could have told you. You are a tender mercy - thank you.
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