This day will be seared in my brain forever. I went with my parents to my mom's dr. appointment where he told us that my mom's cancer is terminal and that she has at best a year to live. What do you say to this? My mom is everything to me. We are best friends. I'm trying to figure out what we did wrong in our previous life to deserve having a beloved sister and mom die within months of each other. There is something wrong with the world. And my poor brother has to find out that his mom is dying while he's serving the Lord. I know somewhere there must be a reason for this but I sure can't find it. Someday I think I might, but not for a long time. One year is not enough time. She still has so much to teach me. The only comforting thing is knowing that my mom will be reunited with my sister again and that I will get to see them both again.
I still have a testimony but it is definitely being tried. But I still and will always believe that the Lord knows me and my family and cares for us all. It can best be summed up in this scripture that I stole from my sister:
"Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend." Mosiah 4:9
I think I'm going to check out for a while, but I'll be back eventually. :)
Oh April, I am so sorry! I can't even imagine what your day has been like, but what I know of your Mom is that she is a fighter.
ReplyDeleteThe Lord knows what we need and what we can handle (even if you don't feel like you can handle it) Just remember the words of President Uchtdorf "Faith, not
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I will be praying for your family, and if you ever want to talk, I'm here! -Sarah (Barton)Barrus
We are so sorry to hear this. Please know of our love for your family. It seems tragedy is never far from home lately. I suppose we will one day know the reason for these trials, but right now it seems overwhelming. We pray you feel the same comfort that your family has given us in recent months. We love you and pray for the best.
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April We are so sorry. Our prayers will be with you guys. I dont know why this has to happen to your family but we are terribly sorry
ReplyDeleteWow I don't know what to say other than, our thoughts and prayers are with you and that Thank goodness for the gospel and knowing you will see her again. You are being prayed for.
ReplyDeleteApril! Our prayers are with you and your family! Please know that you did nothing wrong - and you don't "deserve" this. It happens to THE BEST of people! Heavenly Father loves you and will take care of you and your family! Love, MKG
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry! It is SO hard to be left behind, isn't it? I have a friend who lost her husband just about a year ago. Her blog might bring you some comfort. Please know that we are thinking of praying for you.
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April, I am so so sorry. I dont even know what to say other than I love you and I will be thinking about you and have you and your family in my prayers.I love you.
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April I am so sorry! My heart is breaking for you and your poor family. This is really too much for one family to have to go through in the same year. I am sorry, I wish there was more I can do, we will keep the whole Spjute family in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about you for the past couple of days getting updates from my Mom. I keep questioning and wondering 'why'. You have the most amazing family ever and don't deserve any of this. The Lord has promised us to only give us trials we can handle, I know you can handle this better than most people because of your strong testimony! I love you so much, thanks for always being a wonderful example to me.
ReplyDeleteApril, I don't read your blog but ran across it today, I feel it was inspired. My boss'husband was diagnosed 1 year ago this week with terminal cancer & given a year to live. He is still fighting today. He was declared cancer free in May. His "inoperable tumor" was removed in August. I encorage you to research, ask questions, follow your intuition, fight & stay positive.
ReplyDeleteApril- I am so sorry to hear about your mother. Your family will be in our thoughts and prayers. Two words come to my mind whenever I think about the Spjute family: steadfast and immoveable. Your family is such an incredible inspiration to so many people. Your family has truly touched our lives. We pray that you will find answers. We love you!
ReplyDeleteApril, I hope you know how much we are thinking of you and praying for you and your family at this time. We are grateful you are part of your family and we hope you know how much we love you. Let me know if there is anything we can do for you. Paisley would love to have Megan come play anytime. Megan will be a great big sister. Good Luck
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