Mothers Day Torment

Megan's drawing of me she gave to me today.

 

 I was determined this year that I would actually enjoy Mother's Day,

and try not to think about all the bad stuff.

I gave it a valiant effort, but failed miserably.

So now I've decided that Mother's Day just isn't for me, and that's okay.

It's too hard to try and have a nice day when I have no Mom to tell her that I love her. It also doesn't help that this weekend marked the 5 year passing of my sista Linz, and my Mom's birthday is in a few days.

Like I said, it's just not meant to be for me.

I was doing really well today until the primary got up to sing their songs and then I looked over at a young man in our ward who lost his mother to cancer a few years ago, and he was barely holding it together. So I lost it but quickly put myself back together when I noticed Megan saw me and she started crying too. She misses Grandma & Linz a lot. I'm still amazed at how much she remembers about Lindsey. Just the other day she told me she misses snuggling with Norbert (Linz's stuffed pig) and dancing with Linz. I didn't think she'd remember Linz, but I'm grateful that she does.

So from now on Mother's Day will have no expectations other than enjoying the great memories I have of 2 great women in my life and sharing those memories with my kids!